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Spanked virtual book tour – Interview with Rachel Kramer Bussel

August 4, 2008 · 10 Comments

Well, I wrote the other day about how excited I am about Spanked: Red-Cheeked Erotica . Now, I get to really share some of that excitement with you, my dear readers, because the editor (and author of one of the stories in the anthology, Rachel Kramer Bussel, has stopped by this blog on Day 4 of her Spanked virtual book tour. Here’s what we talked about:

Zille: Despite their myriad differences, all these stories have something in common: you selected them for this anthology. What are the common factors that made you choose these stories for publication?

Rachel: This was one of my easiest anthologies to edit, because the stories, for the most part, just worked. I did a private call for submissions, asking my favorite writers to send me stories, and the ones they turned in surpassed even my greatest expectations. I already edited Naughty Spanking Stories from A to Z 1 and 2 and wasn’t sure how much more great spanking erotica was out there, but they went above and beyond. It’s hard to say, though, exactly why I pick a story. Usually it either works immediately, or it doesn’t. A good story has to grab my attention and not let it go. It has to take me place I haven’t been, or places I have been, but in a new way.

And what I like about these is that they each bring a different nuance to the topic of spanking. They get into the motivations as well as the actions, which is really what makes a story. So I’m not sure how much they have in common save for really powerful, hot, arousing writing that gets into the heads of spankers and spankees. I usually get way more stories from the spankees point of view, which I understand; it’s easier to write, in a sense, but I’m always looking for hot stories from the spanker’s viewpoint as well. I’m editing Bottoms Up, the sequel to Spanked, right now, and, as always, want to get a really good mix of spanking viewpoints, styles, implements, and scenarios.

Zille: You say that you don’t normally like Daddy/girl stories, but you include a story called “Daddy’s Girl” (by Teresa Noelle Roberts) in this book. What made that story hot for you?

Rachel: I think she just nailed that particular form of roleplaying so well. She explained it, without taking the reader out of the story. She also makes it clear that while Daddy/girl play is familiar for this couple, what “Daddy” is doing is a bit out of the norm. He pushes her buttons, and she’s not quite sure what to expect. That I loved, because she made it clear that this is something she enjoys. Other than that, I’m not entirely sure, but if I had to pick a favorite in the book, one story that consistently makes me wet every time I read even a portion of it, it’d be “Daddy’s Girl.”

Zille: These stories range the gamut between people getting spanked for the first time (such as in Donna George Storey’s “A Rare Find”), and well-established spankos pushing intense limits (as your own story, “The Depths of Despair,” exemplifies). In putting an anthology like this together, are there any fears that a section of your readers will be too jaded to enjoy the former, and another part will be freaked out by the latter? How do you walk that line?

Rachel: It’s a tricky line to walk, certainly, especially because I truly hope this book appeals to newcomers who may or may not ever actually engage in spanking, as well as seasoned spankophiles. I made my book trailer deliberately “light” so as to give a sense too of the playfulness of spanking, because that can be a big part of it. But the darker aspects, the ways a spanking can linger on our skin and in our minds, far after it’s done, are just as important. I’m sure there are things in here that will freak some people out; there are things in Spanked that freak me out, but I think that’s a good thing. I also hope people finally figure out that it’s okay to read about fantasies, to grapple with them, to use erotica to figure out what intrigues you, what you might never want to do, what you might do with the right person, under the right circumstances. I really hope the book appeals to people across the spanking spectrum, even people who might never have considered it before. And remember, just because you want to read about something doesn’t mean you’re signing up to get spanked for hours on end. Reading is such a safe form of exploration, because you do it alone and can sort out your thoughts, turn-ons, and turn-offs.

Zille: These days there are so many free spanking stories online, but people are still buying erotic books. What is it about erotica in book form that keeps people coming back for more, even in the face of such wide-spread and easily obtained competition?

Rachel: I think books will always be alive and well, especially erotica (though I’m happy to report you can buy Spanked: Red-Cheeked Erotica for Kindle now). Especially for erotica, though, I think people want something tactile. You can curl up in bed with a book, masturbate with it held close, as opposed to a computer screen. There’s something intimate, to me, about owning a book; it’s yours, and you can write in it or earmark the pages. You know which parts are your favorites, and erotica is a genre where there’s a lot of rereading. Also, you can spank someone with a book! So while I’m totally supportive of online erotica and am happy to see that market flourishing in terms of online publications and e-publishing, I will always be an erotica book buyer and reader, and think plenty of others feel the same way.

Zille: In “Daddy’s Girl,” there is a paragraph that reads,

Soon, my ass feels huge and hot and tender, but in a good way, like huge and hot and tender is it’s proper state, and I’ve been waiting for years, not knowing what I was missing, for someone to repair my sad unspanked bottom.

This sums up exactly how I feel during a spanking. As a fellow spanking-enthusiast, does that description work for you, as well? Does it seem to you, as it does to me, that the desire for a spanking is more than just masochism, there are other “needs” inextricably enmeshed in craving a spanking and the resulting satisfaction from getting one?

Rachel: For me, it is about much more than just masochism. I’m a switch, though probably more of a bottom, but spanking reigns supreme in the activities that, without fail, turn me on, and very quickly at that. For various reasons, I don’t get to indulge my love of spanking very often, so when I do, it kindof sweeps me away, as it did for this character. It’s hard to do a spanking scene (bear with me) half-assed, whether as top or bottom. When someone is only halfheartedly engaging in spanking, it just doesn’t work, or at least, doesn’t work as well as it could or should.

For me, so much of the magic of spanking comes from finding the right partner to connect with, someone who can push me right up to and maybe over my edge, but who gets why I find it hot. If they don’t get that, sure, they may technically know where to hit and know what they’re doing, but they may leave me cold. What I’ve found in working on these stories and interviewing the authors about the motivations of their characters is that spanking taps into so many deeper emotions and needs. It can make the person being spanked extremely vulnerable, and a good top plays with that.

I got caned for the first time in January, and that helped inspire my story. There were so many moments where I almost called it off, where I was so scared of what would happen next, and then I realized I could just work with that fear. I could cry it out, and that the pleasure and the reward of having gone through it would outweigh the momentary pain.

Zille: As you worked on putting this collection together, did you used any of these stories as inspiration for your own personal playtime (alone, or with a lover?) If so … details please! :)

Spanked Red Cheeked EroticaRachel: Spanking is one of those activities that for me really only works with a lover (or two). I can get completely turned on fantasizing about it or reading about it but then I’m kindof stuck with myself, though I’ve been reading about self-spankers, which I find interesting. I think the story that really blew my mind and gave me much fantasy fodder was “Daddy’s Girl.” Daddy/girl roleplaying has always been something I’ve skipped over reading about, feeling very removed and a bit squicked by it. But that story pushed me over the edge and made me see the possibilities for it.

I’m hoping to incorporate some of the fantasies I’ve had since working on Spanked into my personal life. It’s not always easy, though, because believe it or not, I can still be very shy about asking to get spanked. Anyone who has the guts to do so, I salute you, and recognize how brave and bold an act that is. I’m amazed, though, at how just reading about spanking or looking at spanking photos, can turn me on; other things turn me on, too, but not as quickly or powerfully as spanking.

Also, and I’m not sure I should say this, but I’ve been spanked by more than one author in the book. That is all I will say about it, other than both authors have very good spanking hands, kinky minds, and stand out in my spanking memories.

Zille: I have to say, hearing that you’ve been spanked by some of the authors of Spanked does add a serious titillation value — it’s so hot to think about! Maybe for the next book you can get all the authors to spank you for the promo video! :D

Thank you, Rachel, for taking the time to answer my questions! This was really fun, and you’re welcome back on this blog any time! :)

Categories: BDSM · blogroll · books · daddy/girl · erotica · kink · spanking

Spanked Red Cheeked Erotica

July 25, 2008 · 1 Comment

Well, I’ve just had a sigh of relief! Two, sighs, actually, if you count that I just masturbated! ;)

I promised Rachel Kramer Bussel that I would review her new book, Spanked: Red-Cheeked Erotica and will be doing an interview with her on August 4th. When I first talked to her, I was all fired up by her enthusiasm (which is boundless and contagious!) but after I’d cooled off, in the following days, I began to worry. Most anthologies of erotica published in the U.S. these days leave me with this sensation of “Why did I bother…?” I’d pretty much decided that the only erotica that I wanted to read were: Janus Magazine, Victorian erotica, and the occasional book by Nexus (like Over the Knee).

I was feeling moderately worried about this — what if this erotic anthology left me as unaroused as so many others had. I certainly wanted to promote Rachel’s new book, as she is a wonderful person and a fellow pervert and writer. But I also don’t want to promote anything in this blog that I don’t think is quality, that I don’t personally like and enjoy.

I’m happy to say that my fears were for naught — I should have had faith in Rachel’s taste and kinkiness! The review copy arrived yesturday, and I got some time to settle in bed and read it today. I’ve only gotten three stories into it … but all were really hot, and I had to take a break to deal with how excited I’d become while reading them! I immediately came out here and sat down to write this blog post — I’m that excited about the book!

Spanked Red Cheeked EroticaThe first story is written in the first person: a spanker’s point of view, discussing a lover and how much he loves to spank her. It’s written so well, and with such clear insight into the female spankee’s mind, that I found myself almost jealous. I don’t know if my Master understands me that well!

The second story is a hot librarian/book store fantasy. Nowadays, I’ve mostly been enjoying male Top, female bottom stories (I go through phases, but this one’s lasted pretty long), so I wasn’t sure how much this one would move me. Surprise — even though this is a female Top and boy bottom (heh – literally!) this story had sucked me in and had me eagerly reading every word.

The next story takes place in a kitchen, with various cooking implements being used on a naughty housewife. That sounds so cliched and done, right? Wrong! This was inventive and what pushed me over the edge to have to take a … break. Especially the part about the rubber gloves!

I can’t wait to read the rest of
Spanked: Red-Cheeked Erotica, and I’m now really, really looking foward to interviewing Rachel!

(Oh, and if you want to keep up with Rachel and the book, the blog is here.)

Categories: Janus · books · erotica · kink · spanking · victorian

domestic discipline and anal sex

July 15, 2008 · 3 Comments

My last post was actually supposed to be an intro to this erotic fantasy, but it grew so large and unwieldy that I just made it its own post, and posted this seperately. Here’s the fantasy I have about how my Master could have punished me for leaving the camera overnight in the car….

“Zille, do you know what I found in the car when I went downstairs?”

“No, Sir.”

“The camera.”

“Oh, Sir! I’m very sorry! I wasn’t feeling well when we came back last night. I know how lucky I am that it wasn’t stolen, and your car broken into again. I’m really very sorry.”

“I’m glad that you understand that, girl. But you still need to be punished.”

In a very small voice: “Yes, Sir.”

“I think you need an aid to your memory. Go get the large bronze butt-plug.”
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Categories: anal · bondage · discipline · erotica · fantasies · kink · paddle
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“Accepting the unfair” (daddy/girl spanking story)

July 6, 2008 · 3 Comments

One of my favorite resources for CP-related stories is the excellent blog, A Taste of the Birch.

Today I found the extraordinarily hot story, Accepting the Unfair. I hope the Author, “Placid,” doesn’t mind me reposting it over here.

daddy straps her naughty naked bottom -- punishment with belt
Picture courtesy of Girls-Boarding-School.com
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Categories: daddy/girl · discipline · english vice · erotica · kink · pictures · schoolgirl · spanking
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Straitjacket, pussy-beating fantasy

June 28, 2008 · 3 Comments

Right now I’m having a recurring fantasy about a scene I’d love my Master to do with me…

I’m in the leather straitjacket with removable breast flaps. We found out while doing another scene that if you lie me on my back and wrap my arms around my legs and fasten the straps, I’m left in a particularly vulnerable position.

In my fantasy, he has pulled off the tit flaps and exposed my breasts, and put these nasty little tight clips we have all over my breasts. Then he has taken the Metal Genital Whip, and beaten my exposed pussy and thighs and bottom, until I am screaming and trying to squirm away, or roll away, or just get away any way I can. But all he has to do is hold me down with one strong hand, and there is nowhere I can go.

He pays especial attention to my pussy, making the lashes of the martinet cut into that softest flesh over and over again. Then, when I am sobbing helplessly, completely worn out by the pain, he takes some more of those evil little clips and attaches them to my inner labia … and then one right on my clit.

As I scream and beg him to take those painful clips off my already bruised flesh, he tells me I have no choice but to take it as he lubes up his cock. Then, telling me I am lucky that he doesn’t fuck my pussy with its clipped lips, he pushes his cock into my ass and uses me for his pleasure as I cry from the combined pain of the clips and rough penetration.

(As a variation of this, I’m a schoolgirl who has been caught for the third time letting some guy stick his dick into her, and this is my punishment for my promiscuity – beating it, and then, since my pussy has been “defiled,” only my ass will do for his pleasure now!)

lambskin leather straitjacket removable tit flaps Metal Genital Whip

Categories: BDSM · anal · erotica · fantasies · kink · whip / martinet
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holes for rent: a story

May 14, 2008 · 5 Comments

I am delighted to say that the explicit anal sex video that I posted a few days ago, which turns me on so much, has inspired a very hot story by oatmeal girl over on her blog, “submission & metaphor.”

I myself have fantasies about this very thing. (Although in my fantasies, I’m afraid safer sex just goes right out the window! I want come dripping out of every viable orifice!)

One fantasy, that I will get around to writing up one day, comes from Caligula forcing the senator’s wives to prosititute themselves (you couldn’t say “no,” as the there were two choices and the other was “death.”) Roman Sex SlaveIn my fantasy, my Master is ceasar (not The Ceasar, just the title), and I am his wife and he decides to raise funds (probably to pay the armies, who chronically were underpaid and always supported whomever said they’d get a raise) by prostituting me out to any Roman who could afford it. In my fantasies, though, it’s my pussy that’s kept in reserve (you wouldn’t want the emperor’s wife pregnant with just anyone’s child!) and my mouth and ass that are for rent. It makes for a pretty hot fantasy! It also has the “preparation” period like in oatmeal girl’s story!

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Victorian punishment fantasies…

April 24, 2008 · 3 Comments

Abel has been putting up some lovely “punishment fantasies inspired by —-” posts recently, and so, when I saw this image, it immediately caught my eye as something that could inspire any number of interesting scenarios….
Victorian lady in the hands of soldiers
How do you think this woman ended up in that situation? What will happen next?

Here’s what my imagination comes up with: (more…)

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Bent over and ready for the birch rod

March 30, 2008 · 2 Comments

Vintage Birched Bottom

Now, here’s a (lovely vintage) example of something I really want to try. (Although I might be regretting that desire about two strokes into the birching, but you never know ’till you try!) But I can’t get my hands on a pre-made birch rod. The one person I’ve found who makes them won’t sell them as a stand-alone order — you have to buy something else from her, and as she sells canes, and my Master currently has all the canes a devotee of discipline could need (and no, I’m not saying this to try and limit his cane collection — as it is MY ass on the line — but because he has so many canes that in over three years together I don’t think we’ve actually used all of them!)

I’d be delighted to make my own, but all the directions I’ve found online assume that you have a basic idea of what you’re doing, and I really need the “Birches for Dummies” manual.

But the delights of the birch call to me. It features in pretty much every piece of Victorian erotica. For example:

Thinking it was all over, I entreated them to let me go, but to my sorrow soon found out my mistake.
“Not yet, not yet, you bad girl, you’re not half punished for all your biting, scratching and imprudence,” exclaimed Sir Eyre.
Again the hateful birch hissed through the air, and cut into my bruised flesh, both buttocks and thighs, suffering and smarting in agony, but he seemed careful at first not to draw the blood; however, as I was not to escape, it was only his deliberate plan of attack, so as not to exhaust the poor victim too soon.
“Next time you’ll know what to expect. You deserve no mercy, the idleness was bad enough, but such murderous conduct is awful — bite, will you?” Thus lectured the old man, getting warmer and warmer in the attack, till the blood fairly trickled down my poor thighs.
I was in dreadful agony at every cut, and must have fainted, but his lecturing me seemed to sustain me like a cordial; besides, with the pain I experienced a most pleasurable warmth and excitability impossible to be described.

From p.12 of The Pearl (Erotica from the Underground Magazine of Victorian England).

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Do You Make Exceptions, Sir? (explicit schoolgirl caning story)

March 19, 2008 · Leave a Comment

I found this spanking good tale online, and the author (LurkingCol@removethis.hotmail.com) says it’s okay to repost it, so I wanted to share it with you!


Natalia felt the butterflies growing in the pit of her tummy as she wandered the halls towards the office. All around her girls wandered in different directions. They paid her no attention. School was out, and their laughter and wide smiles only served to darken the young woman’s mood. She forced herself to keep going, even though a voice from the back of her mind tried to impose reason. Was she still sane?She forced herself towards the school secretary’s office. She almost faltered, almost spun on her heal and out to safety. But she had no choice in the matter, not really.
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Zille’s Porn Emporium (video on demand)

February 20, 2008 · 1 Comment

I just found that a bunch of videos of me are at this video-on-demand site (pay per movie.)

I figured you all would be very eager to see some of the porn I’ve made over the years, without having to sign up for a monthly-billing porn-site or anything, so here you go: Zille’s Porn Emporium – Videos On Demand

Also, note that for your conveinience, I’ve made it a page on my blog:  Porn Starring Zille

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