Zille Defeu’s fetish fantasies

See you all in three weeks!!!

May 16, 2008 · 4 Comments

Okay, my fans, friends and fellow perverts! I’m going to be leaving tommorow to start the final stage of the wedding of me and my Master. Wow … I’m really writing that!

After that, we have a two week vacation in a lovely Mediterranean locale! I may stop by the blog and give an update from the honeymoon, but as of tommorow, I’ll be way too busy for a week!

Feel free to leave any comments or requests for future updates — you know I live to serve! ;)

Here’s two shots of us from various fetish parties (Fetish Factory’s 11th anniversary, and the SF Fetish Ball 2006) which I think sums us up nicely! Keep reading →

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Horrible outing of “secret dominatrix”

May 16, 2008 · 2 Comments

This is just disgusting and cruel. This “news” paper should be sued until it goes bankrupt.

http://www.newsoftheworld.co.uk/0405_miss_whiplash.shtml

The last three lines are really telling:

When we confronted Hamilton about her secret homework, she said: “It’s my private life.”

Ummm, yup! It sure as hell is!

But our revelations will horrify head teacher Lynn Samwell-Smith at The Simpson School in Milton Keynes, Bucks.

And it’s not hard enough to get teachers these days? You have to ruin the career of an otherwise spotless teacher? And why would anyone want to become a teacher, when it means that they can’t do anything else they’d like to do in life for fear of being outed by assholes like you?!

And Hamilton’s days of violent sextra-curricular activities will soon be numbered.

The smugness of this just makes me ill. It’s not like men weren’t paying good money for these “violent sextra-curricular activities” (and what an juvenille pun. This writer got their sense of humour from porn video box covers). This poor woman was doing fine. She wasn’t doing anything that was unconsensual, and she was doing it with adults. Also, hello, she was NOT a hooker! She was a pro-Domme, and that means she wasn’t having sex with the men!

My deepest sympathies go out to her!

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California Supreme Court says same-sex couples have right to marry

May 15, 2008 · 6 Comments

Yay! At SF Pride this year, we’ll all have a real reason to celebrate!!!

From: SFGate

Gays and lesbians have a constitutional right to marry in California, the state Supreme Court said today in a historic ruling that could be repudiated by the voters in November.

In a 4-3 decision, the justices said the state’s ban on same-sex marriage violates the “fundamental constitutional right to form a family relationship.” The ruling is likely to flood county courthouses with applications from couples newly eligible to marry when the decision takes effect in 30 days.

“The California Constitution properly must be interpreted to guarantee this basic civil right to all Californians, whether gay or heterosexual, and to same-sex couples as well as to opposite-sex couples,” Chief Justice Ronald George wrote in the majority opinion.

Allowing gay and lesbian couples to marry “will not deprive opposite-sex couples of any rights and will not alter the legal framework of the institution of marriage,” George said.

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holes for rent: a story

May 14, 2008 · 5 Comments

I am delighted to say that the explicit anal sex video that I posted a few days ago, which turns me on so much, has inspired a very hot story by oatmeal girl over on her blog, “submission & metaphor.”

I myself have fantasies about this very thing. (Although in my fantasies, I’m afraid safer sex just goes right out the window! I want come dripping out of every viable orifice!)

One fantasy, that I will get around to writing up one day, comes from Caligula forcing the senator’s wives to prosititute themselves (you couldn’t say “no,” as the there were two choices and the other was “death.”) Roman Sex SlaveIn my fantasy, my Master is ceasar (not The Ceasar, just the title), and I am his wife and he decides to raise funds (probably to pay the armies, who chronically were underpaid and always supported whomever said they’d get a raise) by prostituting me out to any Roman who could afford it. In my fantasies, though, it’s my pussy that’s kept in reserve (you wouldn’t want the emperor’s wife pregnant with just anyone’s child!) and my mouth and ass that are for rent. It makes for a pretty hot fantasy! It also has the “preparation” period like in oatmeal girl’s story!

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Pictures from the birching

May 13, 2008 · 5 Comments

Here are the images to accompany the “my first birching” post.
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My first birching (plus caning and anal sex!)

May 12, 2008 · 12 Comments

(Noto bene: This post was written last night, while my Master was out doing some errands. Pictures from the birching are here.)

The birches mumbojumble gave us have been sitting in a vase for a couple weeks, now. Giving me a frisson of anticipation every time I walked past them. Today was the day they finally got used on my naked bottom.

Sometimes, you plan scenes – detailed, intricate role-play. Sometimes, scenes just happen.

My Master and I were putting some shelves in our lovely new wardrobe (and thanks to our dear friend, whom I think I shall give the name “Mr. Stag,” for wasting his weekend helping us get and assemble our wardrobe!) We finished all the work we could do, and my Master lay down on the bed. Something in the way he did so gave me the hint that kinky stuff would shortly follow. So I climbed on the bed and started running my hands up and down his legs … trying to indicate my receptivity. I hadn’t really been in a place where I was actively thinking about sex … but knowing he was took me from naught to sixty in no time flat!

After a period of meaningful eye-contact and rising horniness, I finally stopped fondling his thighs, and lay down beside him. In doing so, I brushed against him, and suddenly realized he was as throbbing erect as possible! He told me it was time to finally get my birching, and fear shot through me – but I couldn’t help grinning like an idiot!

He pointed out that only bad girls got birched. I responded that perhaps it was time for my bad girl persona to come out and play … maybe she had stayed out all night, doing things she wasn’t supposed to with boys. He was right there with me, and brought in the running role-play fantasy we have of the bad girl and her ever-so-patient housemaster, who has taken her under his wing (a cane-wielding wing!) and who is trying to prepare her (by way of tenderizing her bottom at regular intervals!) to send her off to a training institution (we’ve already given it a name: “The Lausanne Institute”) so that she can be his perfect girl.

Well, my Master likes a challenge, because my bad-girl persona doesn’t give in gracefully! No, she fights and whinges and generally makes as much as possible that much harder for herself! Yes, he likes the challenge! When I deliberately do or say something that gets me in more trouble, he gets such a glint in his eye! And then he hands out a serious thrashing!

Well, after we’d set up our story-line, he told me what to wear, and to make a birch rod and bring it to him. On went the navy gym shorts and gym skirt, a white shirt with blue tie, and grey sweater and white knee socks. (Because I was a bad girl, I pushed the socks unevenly around my ankles, and didn’t tuck my shirt in. I also left one button undone, as I was sneaking back in after a night of debauchery, and thus should be a bit mussed!)

Then, I had to make the birch rods! Very kindly, mumbojumble had provided some sample rods, so I had immediate examples to hand. The birch twigs she gave us were quite long, so I made two shorter length rods, one with the thinnest ends, and one of the thickest ends. (When it comes to pain, my Master can always count on me to be thorough!)

Then I went and knocked on the bedroom door, heart thumping my my chest, trying to bring up all my bravado and attitude, so I could get into some serious hot water….
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Victorian erotica: the original cheeky girls

May 11, 2008 · 7 Comments

Ever wondered what our great grandparents got up to behind closed doors? A new collection of erotica leaves little doubt, says Guy Kennaway

‘I bought my first erotic photograph in the mid-1980s,’ Danny Moynihan tells me. ‘I had come across some photos of Austrian origin of rather portly looking ladies in petticoats playing with sex toys. I thought they were rather amusing.’
This happy couple loves the birch
Moynihan is an artist and a curator. He has collaborated frequently with his friend Damien Hirst and has written a novel - soon to be released as a film - satirising the art world. He is also the owner of one of the world’s largest collections of vintage erotica.

‘At the time I was buying and selling 20th-century photographs with the art dealer Paul Kasmin,’ he explains. ‘In those days photos didn’t really exceed $5,000, though we did own a Violin d’Ingres by Man Ray which we sold to the Getty for $10,000, but that was an exceptional piece.’

So presumably, were the dozen or so pictures that started Moynihan’s collection of nearly 500 often explicit photographs, many of which decorate the walls of his Chelsea home, where I have come to meet him.

‘I think the Austrian photos were a few hundred dollars altogether,’ he says. ‘I got them from a German in New York, who just happened to have them on him at the time. I showed them to a few friends and enjoyed their reaction of shock, surprise and delight.’

It is no longer only Moynihan’s friends who will be surprised, possibly delighted, by the photographs. Nearly a third of his collection has been reproduced in a substantial coffee-table book being brought out by the art publisher Other Criteria. He puts it onto the table between us and gives the lady on the front a pat. ‘Not long after my first purchase I found these photos by Felix Moulin of Manet’s model for Olympia. Moulin had a way of photographing women that made them erotic but not pornographic. They were rather more expensive but it set me thinking about making a collection of erotic photos.’

The model lying naked on the couch is unquestionably the sublime woman in the iconic painting, whose body is instantly recognisable to all connoisseurs of fine art. ‘Manet worked a lot from photographs, rather than live models,’ Moynihan explains.’It’s well documented. If you look at his pictures you can see they are unmistakably photographic.’

Moynihan would certainly object to his collection being described as filth. Instead, he divides it into five categories including ‘the sensual nude, ethnographic tribal nudes, medical photos, posed studio tableaux and straight pornography’. Quite a lot seems to have changed in the world of pornography since these photographs were taken. The invention of the ladies’ razor, for one. Most of the women have their (often wrinkled) stockings on, the men their socks. This might have been considered saucy, intended to represent the haste of the liaisons, or it may simply have been cold in the photographers’ studios.

Moynihan taps the book again. ‘I adore this one, early 1850s woman, but you can hardly notice the pussy.’ I raise my eyebrows. Then I notice there’s a kitten in the folds of her pulled-up can-can dress.

‘The most I have paid for one is $5,000 - when the dollar was a dollar and not a rupee’ - he adds urbanely. ‘I think it was three or four years ago. As time went on I became more discerning, and could see when something really good came up.’

We go past a couple of photographs of a cupboard full of what was then shameful police evidence of sexual perversion but would now not look out of place in an Ann Summers shop window. Another shows a man eating a meal off a tray and prodding the generous buttock of a woman with his fork.

‘A lot of these pictures were photographed by a Frenchman called Monsieur X,’ says Moynihan. ‘His whole collection came up for sale in the Forties, when he died. Nobody was allowed to know his real name. The auctioneers in Paris were bound by the terms of his will to silence. Some people even today have their suspicions, but nothing is known for certain about him. He was obviously an amateur.’

I stare at the shot of a woman on her elbow wearing a revealing pair of knickers with slack elastic. ‘Very personalised,’ he adds softly, ‘note the grainy quality. She’s unorchestrated, unposed; you sense it was all done for himself, whoever Monsieur X was.’

Is there lots of competition between collectors? ‘There are a few collectors. I know they exist - but I don’t want to know them,’ he says. ‘To be part of a tribe of porn collectors would be rather seedy. It’s a curiosity, not an endeavour. If I come across them I get them.’
Victorian orgy
It’s Moynihan’s personality that gives Private Collection its charm. He doesn’t take the book or the subject of erotica very seriously. Perhaps this is because he has so many other things going on: at 48, he is a happily married father of two, has written the screenplay for the forthcoming film of his novel, Boogie Woogie, throws parties full of famous names and faces, has houses here and there, and an ever changing collection of art.

‘I love this one,’ he says, drawing my attention to yet another photo. ‘Great background.’ His finger alights, rather incongruously, given the content of the rest of the picture, on a bedspread. ‘Look at that textile,’ he coos, ‘isn’t it beautiful? And the wallpaper in this one,’ he says, ignoring the cavorting ladies and gentlemen on the bed and tapping the wall behind an upturned Victorian buttock. ‘William Morris,’ he says, ‘an amazing, early Edwardian interior.’

Has he ever bought contemporary pornography? ‘No, no, no, no,’ he answers, distaste at the very thought flitting across his face. How old does a photograph have to be to get into his collection? ‘Recently, 1930s,’ he says, ‘though I am getting more and more into the 1950s and 1960s stuff. It’s so posed, so of the period.’

I ask whether he has ever thought of taking erotic photographs himself. A faint smile appears on his inscrutable face. ‘I’ve never had a stab,’ he says. ‘Maybe I should. I am coming to the age when that kind of thing crosses the mind.’

Private Collection: A History of Erotic Photography (1850-1940) is published by Other Criteria.

Article from Telegraph.co.uk | Hat tip to Thomas Roche

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English Discipline Series - College Classics Special

May 8, 2008 · 2 Comments

One of the videos my Master gave me at the beginning of our relationship, on a series of two CDs entitled “Educational Videos,” was the classic English punishment film, “In Loco Parentis.” I wrote about it for my Master before, but I’ve just watched it again, and found that you can actually buy this video online!

It took a long time to find it, because it’s actually sold as part of a “two pack” on the Video On Demand site, under the name, “English Discipline Series - College Classics Special.” But, since you can just pay for clips, you can watch the second half of the video directly, and that is “In Loco Parentis.”



You can also buy it at that staple of English punishment sites, classicspanking.com. Unlike the Video on Demand, you’ll have to join the site to see it. Still, there are enough examples of finest English punishment videos that I really don’t think the money will be wasted!

The ad copy for the movie is quite amusing!

“Professor Hutchins was looking forward to a quiet evening at home when he got an urgent call from Mrs. Bromley. Her daughter Sandra is a problem student, and schools are not allowed to administer discipline nowadays. What is she to do? Reluctantly, the Professor agrees to deal with the problem “off the record” in the privacy of his own home. It’s a shame such an attractive girl must suffer the painful humiliation of a limber cane across her bare bottom. And the professor must spend his time turning her round rump bright red. He was hopping [sic] to spend the evening reviewing his stamp collection. But Mrs. Bromley is such a good friend, and her daughter is so disobedient, how could he refuse!”

Poor Professor Hutchins! Silliness aside, what I love about the movie is that Professor Hutchins lectures Sandra as earnestly as if this wasn’t just a porn movie. The whole movie is very dedicated to verisimilitude, from beginning to end. The opening phone call, which sets up why Sandra is coming over to get a spanking, is done seriously, with detail. Then, we wait for a while with Professor Hutchins while he ruminates on what a whippy cane may well do to change this girl’s unfortunate attitude. When Sandra finally does show up, she gets lectured, spanked, lectured, birched, lectured, smacked with the belt, lectured, caned (after being put into a special punishment robe, which involves a lecture on the seriousness of a caning and the importance of ceremony), and then after the caning, a final lecture just to be sure.

I don’t know about you, but I find that hot-hot-hot! There’s nothing I love more with a spanking or caning than a lecture on discipline! So this movie really works for me!

Watch “In Loco Parentis” in Video on Demand or over at classicspanking.com.

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My favorite anal porn video clip (very explicit)

May 7, 2008 · 6 Comments

As you can probably tell, I’ve been spending a certain amount of time over at YouPorn. In some ways, it’s a deeply unsatisfactory site. But there are some gems among the video clips there.

Like this one: a video clip of the hottest anal sex I’ve ever seen.

I can’t help but watch this video over and over again. This is exactly what I want to see when it comes to porn! I love how tight her anus is, and how he has to shove his cock inside. As I watch him thrusting in and out, I imagine how much it is hurting her, which sends thrills of pure sexual excitement up and down my spine.

And then, I love how his balls tense up — you can see the muscle spasms! — as he comes inside her ass. And then seeing his come dribbing out of her punished anus.

But best of all is how used and objectified she is. She is faceless, kept in a very strict and not particularly comfy position, and he just uses her for his pleasure. Look at the way he handles her, especially at the end. Again, more pure sexual excitment shooting around in my brain and zinging down to my pussy!

When I watch this video, I pretend the girl is me, and the guy is my Master (another good thing about faceless porn!)

Here’s what I look like in that postion, by the way…
Zille with her ass in the air

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Trembling at the thought of a birch rod…

May 6, 2008 · 3 Comments

I have birch rods on my mind.

This may be because of the bouquet of birch twigs sitting in a vase in the bathroom, which I see every time I go in there. I know the birching is coming — it will be before we leave for the wedding. I hate the waiting! Although I’m not sure that I’ll still be so impatient when the day of the birching comes along…. Anyway, I can’t stop reading about the birch, of course. Which is only making my anticipation all the worse! Here’s a great link I found today. The below text and images are from it….

fear of the birch rodThe birch, a bundle of twigs cut from a tree, normally the birch tree. Dried out and with twigs and leaves removed, it has been long used as a means of corporal punishment and for stimulating the skin in or after a sauna. As an instrument of chastisement its first recorded use is in 1440: “He bete hur wyth a yerde of byrke”. In the UK it was an available legal punishment until 1948, and is still retained as such by the Isle of Man, where the last judicial birching occurred in 1975, the same year as the European Court of Human Rights declared it a “cruel and unusual punishment”. The last floggings of convicts for offences against prison discipline took place as recently as the 1960s. The 1948 Criminal Justice Act abolished birching for all crimes other than certain prison offences, where those 21 and over got 18 strokes of the cat-o’-nine-tails or birch, and those under 21 got 12 strokes.
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